A chapter in my life is quickly coming to a close and it is much, much quicker than I ever thought it would come. All the emotion surrounding this uncertain time feels like there is a giant question mark placed on top of my head. These are emotions that I never expected to experience, at least not to this extent.
I am graduating from college in a short 4 weeks and could not have more mixed feelings: happy, excited, scared, etc. These are all emotions that I am experiencing about what is to come in the future. I have been extremely blessed to have attended UNC-Chapel Hill for the past four years and would not trade them for anything. The friends and all the memories I have made here will never be forgotten. Each year has its own defining moment that has shaped who I am today and I am thankful for every trial and triumph that I have experienced.
I along with many other close friends face this great trial and triumph called graduation. Fortunately, I have a plan post-grad, for which I am extremely grateful. Yet, the uncertainty associated with these life changes scares the shit out of me and to be completely honesty, being out on my own for the first time is terrifying as well. It may just be all of the emotions centered around the change in my life and the change that is to come that is creating all of this uncertainty right now, who knows. But, what I do know is that regardless of how uncomfortable I may feel regarding the next few months, it is something I must face and must face head-on.
I am slowly beginning realizing that everything will work out in the end for the best for me and my future, whatever that may be. I will not be able to do this on my own, no matter how stubborn I am. With support from those around me, both personally and professionally, I am certain I will find my way. I never thought I would feel this way regarding my future and what it holds. I have always had an idea of what is come, fuzzy at sometimes but it has always been there. Now honestly, I can’t be certain what is to come in the future.
This is one of the most exciting times in my life and I know it will take some time to get used to. The only way to truly find out what will be best is through the process of elimination and trying different things. I’ll change my mind in regards to certain things, there is no doubt in that, and I’m ok with that.